Motivation of the New Year
2006 has begun, in case you haven't noticed. I have been making good with resolutions so far (day 5 of 2006 - not too bad). Done with holidays, done with family stuff, done with food, food, and more food. My goodness the holidays are rough. So now life is getting back to normal. Today I have to say that the worst part of all that stuff is the inability to get things back to normal.
I did a "cleaning" of the homefront. Threw out all the junk food and left over garbage food from the past 3 weeks (gross! I know!) Yesterday I even decided to start the New Year with a little rearranging. There isn't much I can do with my furniture because of the odd angles and lack of room in general but I made it work. It looks fun for now. I will see if it becomes more of an annoyance in the coming days.
Then today I come to work and UGH! I think it's the lack of sales from the last 3 weeks that have me down right now. I have little energy to continue on projects that are in the "pending" pile and I just can't seem to focus. It is bothering me to no end so I have to get my head back into it. I am also starting to think more on the lack of my "other" job. I am getting to a place where I don't really need the money anymore but the guilt is always there for quitting (or not). Don't get me wrong, I need the money but I need to get my head in a happier place than the past year and allow myself to be better at home and at my real job.... not make it through the week and see where I have left over energy for the other job. After some considerable thought yesterday, I have started to conclude that cutting that tie might be in my best interest. I love the people and will miss them. But I can not focus on myself and my life right now if I have to worry about that too. I am finally in a place of my life finally where I am not so worried about how things are going to get paid. I would like to start taking that time that I used to have to spend finding the funds to live and turn that time into time to better myself and my happiness. I guess call it a NEW New Year's Resolution. Wish me luck!
I did a "cleaning" of the homefront. Threw out all the junk food and left over garbage food from the past 3 weeks (gross! I know!) Yesterday I even decided to start the New Year with a little rearranging. There isn't much I can do with my furniture because of the odd angles and lack of room in general but I made it work. It looks fun for now. I will see if it becomes more of an annoyance in the coming days.
Then today I come to work and UGH! I think it's the lack of sales from the last 3 weeks that have me down right now. I have little energy to continue on projects that are in the "pending" pile and I just can't seem to focus. It is bothering me to no end so I have to get my head back into it. I am also starting to think more on the lack of my "other" job. I am getting to a place where I don't really need the money anymore but the guilt is always there for quitting (or not). Don't get me wrong, I need the money but I need to get my head in a happier place than the past year and allow myself to be better at home and at my real job.... not make it through the week and see where I have left over energy for the other job. After some considerable thought yesterday, I have started to conclude that cutting that tie might be in my best interest. I love the people and will miss them. But I can not focus on myself and my life right now if I have to worry about that too. I am finally in a place of my life finally where I am not so worried about how things are going to get paid. I would like to start taking that time that I used to have to spend finding the funds to live and turn that time into time to better myself and my happiness. I guess call it a NEW New Year's Resolution. Wish me luck!
posted by Jaime | 5:12 PM
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